My Eyes Weep Worms For You

I'm blonde.
Holla, players.
I love me more than anyone else.
Losing weight.
Thinking about going anorexic again much?
Hmm.
Opinions?

You're upset.
You make a mistake.
You lose one.
Two.
Three.
Four people.
Because you're upset, and you're ALWAYS upset.
And you're so pointless to them.
Why do you even bother?
Stop.
Stop.
STOP.


I'm gonna stop right now.


Stop more than just making mistakes and saying it wrong.

Hi there.
I'm going through a hard time in my life so for the next short while I'll be online, but I won't RPing, IMing anyone, or continuing any of the stories I'm currently writing (alone, or with a partner).


I plan to come back, but for a while (no less than a week) I'm going to be blowing off steam and writing angry live journal, myspace, and nexopia posts all over the internet.

You can IM me, I guess, if you need to keep me up to date on what's going on in the outside world that is, of course, rainbows and butterflies because you all lead such happy lives.

If I don't reply, or tell you to fuck off and die, don't be suprised and don't say anything back unless you just wanna make it worse for me. Thanks. -Lia.

Dyllan. We have your back no matter what the fuck happens. Know that, kid. There's always a place in mine or Anita's house if things get weird with those people. Amanda's getting beaten the fuck up the next time we see her, for sure. No one sends her lame fucking crew after our friend.


So. NEW BAND! Check out my friend Darren's band. They're really awesome.

http://www.purevolume.com/bloodontherosethorns

You'll really enjoy them, if you're into the screamo kind of scene. Yeah, the singing is a little weak in some parts, but he's really shaped up since and sounds three hundred times better.

Check these kids out. You won't regret it.


-Lia

You are looking at the resolutions of Amelia Alyssa Adrianne Gugala and Chriselle Marie Paulin Sy for 2007. We're going to complete all of these, we promise it to ourselves, and each other. Have faith.

( Chriselle and Lia's Resolutions )

Lia and Chriselle will mark these off when we finish them!

-Lovvee Lia and Chris

So far in 2007 quite a few things have happened. Of them, not many good. Actually, of them, one good thing has happened to me.

Lets list, shall we?

People I've pissed off:
- Ann
- Kimmi
- Heide
- Sonny
- Frankih
- Chris
- Jade

People who I've made up with:
- Ann
- Kimmi
- Chris
- Jade

People I can't apologize to because they won't understand:
- Sonny
- Frankih

People who don't want to fix it with me:
- Frankih

People I miss:
-All-

People I lost and found again:
- Kait
- Caiti
- Mary Cate
- Mandy

People I've lost and won't get back:
- Frankih

People who don't care:
- Frankih

People who aided in changing who I am:
-Many more than this list holds-

Things I miss:
- Chinook Crue
- Britnee
- "EMO" trio
- "PEE and PLASTIC BAG" trio
- Nita
- Watching Disney movies
- Believing in fairy tales
- Pete Wentz from Wilmette
- Gerard Way from Belleville
- Musicals
-my darlingFrankih.

Merry Fucking Christmas


While you all drink eggnog, share presents with your family and hug them tight and tell them you love them, eat barrels of sweet foods, I'll be looking for a new home, away from the family that kicked me out, that never loved me.


While you're all thinking over the past year and what happened, I'll be starving myself and carving the horrors of it into my intestines, the backs of my eyeballs that're suckling on the jeweled blade you gave me.


While you're saying "I love you" and cuddling up to your lovers, your boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wifes, I'll be screaming in the faces of my ex's and sobbing into the sweet Jewish boys chest, but he'll have no idea why and I will never, never tell him.

While you all live I'll save your lives and go choke.


-A Merry Fucking Christmas Elf.

Whoa.
I'm really bored here.
Hum de hum hum hummmm.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Nita go choke on Dylan M's cock.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Kathryn's Skeet what happened to being friends until the end?
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Candice and Ashley, don't blame me for killing the trio. Don't blame Kathryn, either. We were in it together, it went down with all three of us.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
I don't care about David and I will talk about football if I want so chill the fuck out and don't tell me to go kill myself every time YOU bring it up then tell ME not to talk about it.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Banned from the mall until New Year's? Well thanks, Mr. Security Guard! Now I can just not give anyone anything on Christmas and look as fucking cheap and pathetic as I feel.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
If you tell me I deserve to be beaten by my father one more time I'm out of here and forget you all, forget everything about this part of my life.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit.
I got your back. Have you still got mine?

-LIA(R)

DDR
HUMPTY'S
TARA, ANITA, LIA, REANNE, TAMRA FO REALLLLLL!

ahahaha.

the C-Train was HILARIOUSSSSS.
Here's why:

So, Dan, KayJay, and me are talking about hookers, sex, emo's, and candy girls, and this guy starts to yell at Dan, saying "oh my god, what the fuck with your mouth, women and children on the train, respect, balhbahlbalahhh"

Then Dan gets off the train and I hug him bye and when I sit down, the guy turns to me to get out a crack. Here's what he said:


Him: "do you appreciate that conversation?!"
Me: "it's normal conversation"
Him: "ahh, so you don't care that he's disrespecting women?"
Me: "What are you talking about? I'm a women"
Him: "nahhh, you're just a little girl, and I bet you're already kicked out of the house, too!"
Me & Reanne: "at least I have a house. look at you!"
Him: "yeah yeah, look at me? Look at you! You're just a child"
Me: "I've seen more in my 15 years than you have in your 90, old man"
Him: "ah yeah yeah, I bet, in 15 years I seen Newfoundland to Yellowknife"
Me: "Oh wow. In my 15 years I wrote 3 novels, and have been all the way to Florida. How about them apples."
Him: "Are you asking for a fight?"
Me: "What are you, a veteran, old man?"
Him: "No."
Me: "Did you fight in the war?"
Him: "No."
Me: "Pussy."
Him: "Don't be bad mouthing me in front of women. It's disrespectful."
Me: "Don't talk to me about disrespect, grandpa. Look at how you're dressed, and how you're screaming and harassing a "little girl"."
Him: "Ehh, what do you know."
Me: "I know how to keep all my teeth, and how not to rock a municipal waste hat."
Him: "Ehh, you don't know anything."
Me: "I know how to take a shower and wash my hair."
Him: "You're gonna get smitted, little bitch. Just you wait."
Me: "Sounds sexy."
Then he ran off the train.
And some lady beside us was like
Her: "Kids. No respect today."
And I turn and get up, slam my hand onto the seat beside her shoulder and go:
"You know what? I'll be how the fuck ever I want. If our past didn't consist of you moron's going into such idiotic, pathetic depressions and if you fuck faces didn't have to be so immature and start world wars maybe, just maybe, I'd have respect. I have respect for those who died to save us, but for you? What? You're 60 so you're better than me. Don't be pathetic, grandma. You're just bullshit afraid of my face; the face of a future that's never going to be so stupid like you were and blow up all of Europe. Have a nice fucking day."
Then I sat down and wrapped Reanne in toilet paper.

Reanne is a sexy mummy and no grandpa/grandma will fuck with me.

Holy shit pls.

Best weekend ever.

Novmeber 11th. Rememberance Day.
November 11th- The Radio Rebellion Tour comes to Calgary.
Norma Jean, Misery Signals- fuck, I WILL remember.

you're shit to me.

I don't deserve this.

I won't be coming around for a while, and if I do come back, I won't be "lia" anymore- the pathetic me as you know it will be gone completely.

I hate all of you and everything.

This is not goddamn fair.

What the hell did I do that was so bad? To deserve this?

Everything could have been so perfect if you weren't all such horrible fucking bitches.

ALL OF YOU.

I hope you all really, really get hurt and learn to feel what you make me feel every goddamn day.

If you're happy and you know it clap your hands.




Dead. Fucking. Silence

Ew.
So I get in shit with security, thinking I'd shoplifted, from Chinook Center mall, then I come home and my mom yells at me for my stupid fucking teacher telling her to talk to me and ONLY saying BAD of me. The fucking teacher that did it sees me a whole of 9 minutes every day. 85 minutes with everyone other teacher every day and the teacher I see for 9 minutes tells her I'm horrible, blahblahblaBLAH!

Fuck face.

Then, today my mom knows about the shoplifting and pitches a fit. Oh god she SCREAMS at me for every little thing- from how I walk to my grades to the fact that I start crying when she says "sometimes I just want to fucking beat you, but I'm afraid you'd take me to court because that's just the attitude you have".

That's just the attitude I have?

I'm sorry!

Let me roll the fuck over and die! That work better for you?

Yeah.

Yeah probably.


Fuck you.


-Lia

"La révolution m'a frappé. Le génocide est à mon seuil."


It's all over.

Three parts.
One.
Two.
Three.
bang







you're dead

So.

My week:
Jared, Oliver, and Timmy painted their nails bright, shining pink today. It was pretty sex.
Period.
Blood.
LOTS OF BLOOD.
Colin's mad.
Sonny's mad.
Brent's mad.
I'm mad.
I made people mad.
People made me mad.
Mr. Evans basically kicked me out of Finance and Legal because I told him to "stfu" in a long, drawen out, and certainly expected speech.
Dyllan is a sweet little gangsta dude now.
I like him as a sweet little dude.
Fought with Ann.
Basically the two people who say they "love me, non-platonically" have been ignoring me and it's not cool.
Whatever.
My laptop broke, my parents won't give me my blackberry, the sidekicks aren't being sold in Canada anymore, and, ungh, I won't have internet if my parents don't stop being idiots and taking away this computer. I basically was given 15 minutes on it today. Cute, right? WRONG.


...anyways...

I'm kinda okay.
Not really.
I'm really not okay.
save me

I have gone completely insane.

So I've basically grown sick of life.

Nothing in it excites me except the next Legal-Studies class.

I can't write,
I can't talk,
I can't sing,
I can't do a goddamn thing.

Here's my LAST apology to everyone.

Take it or fucking leave it.

But don't waste one more second trying to cook up a reason for why I am thte way I am.


excuse me while I hang myself


Lia.

Oh a sigh, a gentle sigh. Oh her words, her gentle lips. A disease, the disease we share together. Some find it sick, but me? I find it love. Colorful, even, if you will. A kiss goodnight, my forehead left with a tingling feeling of where her smile had been. Her arms wrapped around my torso, the feeling left of a pounding heart. Excitement. The proximity- too much to take. Her eyes, her eyes, transparent to me. My eyes, my eyes, liquid when we fight.

Xixheartxrancidx: lia, stop

Auto response from CheapxCologne: Pointless.


Lia's crying.

CheapxCologne: Why?
CheapxCologne: I hate when you're mad at me.
Xixheartxrancidx: im not mad at you
CheapxCologne: You sure seem like it.
Xixheartxrancidx: youre the one mad at me
CheapxCologne: I'm not mad!
Xixheartxrancidx: arrite
Xixheartxrancidx: then were good?
CheapxCologne: fine
Xixheartxrancidx: what?
CheapxCologne: Fine we're good.
Xixheartxrancidx: you mean that?
CheapxCologne: You know?
CheapxCologne: like
CheapxCologne: "Yeah, we're fine, we're good"
CheapxCologne: ?
CheapxCologne: Yeah I'll mean it by morning.
CheapxCologne: I'm just overly stressed tonight.
CheapxCologne: 2 sleeping pills will make me better
CheapxCologne: promise.
Xixheartxrancidx: =/
CheapxCologne: what?
Xixheartxrancidx: -kisses forehead- goodnight, princess<3
CheapxCologne: -sighs- I love you so much
CheapxCologne: goodnight, cookie monster E>
[I'd rather touch you over the internet]
Xixheartxrancidx: <3333333
Xixheartxrancidx is away at 9:07:06 PM.

So happy when we fight.